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Emily Hobson- Martin's avatar

This is so relatable. It may not quite be ‘you’ but I am just finishing reading ‘All My Wild Mothers’ by Victoria Bennet ( I’m in the UK so I’m not sure if it has a different US title) which is about healing via an apothecary garden she plants. It’s quite a deep and dark memoir but I’ve found it to be full of hope as well. Thanks for this piece!

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Ashley Jackson-Lee's avatar

Thank you so much for you kind words. I already looked for the book you recommended, looks amazing. Thanks for the recommendation ♥️

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Emily Hobson- Martin's avatar

It definitely comes with some trigger warnings around death and illness she experiences quite a lot of loss and illness of loved ones. I hope you find it an interesting read- certainly about the plants she grows! 💚

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Lindsey Melden's avatar

Love that ending! Fit with-in ❤️

I relate and I’m so glad you’re tuning in now! I had the same realization a few years back that I got my secondary education degree because I “related” to the students - meaning, I had just been one! I was not a cool kid, but I still felt very comfortable in the environment because when I graduated (at 21) I was basically still one of them. 😬 then I stayed home with my kids for the last 12 years and now I don’t know what’s next...

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Ashley Jackson-Lee's avatar

What a beautiful experience to be at home with your children. I’m so grateful for the years my mom stayed at home with my sister and me. Some of the most challenging times in my life were when I didn’t know what was coming next, but some of the most exciting. Rooting for you ✨✨✨

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Paula Gregorowicz's avatar

I love this post. And the decades of betrayal of oneself and trying all the things vs really trusting inner wisdom is very relatable to me. This is the chapter where we listen to the inner wisdom that has been whispering or banging on our doors for years.

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Ashley Jackson-Lee's avatar

Banging on the doors! My intuition never lets me off the hook, I am trying to get better at listening to the first whisper instead of getting into a street brawl with the universe :)

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Paula Gregorowicz's avatar

Yes the whispers. Me too!

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Erin's avatar

Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable story. I too found healing in the garden. I can't relate to your teenage popularity; I was on the other end of the high school social structure. But how lovely that we can meet here, on common ground, after life has brought wisdom and self-knowledge.

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Ashley Jackson-Lee's avatar

High schools are strange and unnatural places for young people-so much damage done that takes a long time to unpack. I feel very fortunate to have the luxury of gardening-so many lessons in my own backyard :)

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